Through out my childhood years, I attended a Christian school and was raised in the Mennonite tradition. I grew up in the country, gardening, riding horses, baking, cooking, freezing our summer harvest, making candy, hiking through the woods and caring for great-grandparents. Each week, my grandmother and I would visit the elders of our family to clean their home and shower them with love.
I have very fond memories of my early childhood during these moments with my grammy and great grandparents who were always filled with love and joy when we came around.
For many years growing up, my life was lived in a traditional, predictable way.
Later, in my late twenties, I discovered Eastern philosophy, meditation, yoga, chakras and gurus. It was a radically different path from how I was raised, which did not sit well with my traditional family.
My studies led me deeper into mysticism, cosmology and esotericism where I learned to apply crystal healing, prepare flower essences, herbal medicines, aromatherapy potions and more. Eventually, I opened a Goddess Shop and shared all of these delicious treasures while I taught empowerment workshops, taught yoga and led meditation as I administered energy healings.
I was deep in my process of spiritual discovery and aggressively looking for self-awareness. From meditational psychotherapy, gestalt therapy to traditional meditation, guru-to-guru, I made my way looking for me.
The first guru, Swami Rama, was a blessing. He brought great healing into my life after the crisis of my divorce, giving me the soothing words and understanding that I needed to go deeper into my practices of soul searching. He came in around the time of my Saturn Return, an important turning point in my life.
The second guru, The Divine Mother of Sri Aurobindo came into my life next. With this guru, The Mother, I learned advanced meditation techniques, worked on absolving karma, clearing it from my body. She also assisted me in preparing the flower essences that I have made for many years. Over time, my frequency through meditation and devotion transformed with her presence in my life.
And there has been Osho who, for many years through his teachings unleashed me from the old patterns that held their grips on my individuality and uniqueness.
But the most powerful guru of them all for me, I realize, is my mother.
My mother gave me the most magical mantra of them all.
The mantra rings in my head to this day with a delicate delivery of her voice echoing in the background: “This too shall pass”.
Whenever she would watch me go into a dramatic, emotional spin, as a child, she would repeat this mantra to me. She wouldn’t give me a hug, nor would she scoop me up into her lap. On the contrary, she would roll her eyes and remind me that the wave of intensity, the passion that was soaring inside of me would soon subside.
It felt cold and unfeeling when she would say these words to me as her eyes slightly rolled and she whispered a sigh. It felt as though she really didn’t care about what was happening to me.
But no, that was not the case.
The deeper I have gone into my studies and practice I am finding that this mantra is actually my saving grace as a passionate, emotional being.
With her smooth “coolness” she could see that my dramatic outbursts, dives into melancholy and periods of disappointment would soon pass and I would be onto something else. She could see, things do pass, circumstances change and I get it over it.
Now, as an adult, I repeat this mantra over and over as I encounter the roar of my emotions, the dip of my sadness and the thrill of a great moment or the shock of change.
I also share this mantra with others, “This Too Shall Pass” as a way to let go, center and remember that nothing is fatal, nothing is forever, and nothing stays the same. Things change, people move on, opportunities come and go and whatever was today will be different tomorrow.
Thank you Mama, for the greatest gift of all, the awareness that “this too shall pass”.
You are, indeed, my favorite guru.
I love you mama.
written by Kashi Stone 2014