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Posted in EMOTIONAL, INNER AUTHORITY on August 15, 2018 by Kashi

My Favorite Guru

Posted in EMOTIONAL on August 2, 2018 by Kashi

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Through out my childhood years, I attended a Christian school and was raised in the Mennonite tradition. I grew up in the country, gardening, riding horses, baking, cooking, freezing our summer harvest, making candy, hiking through the woods and caring for great-grandparents. Each week, my grandmother and I would visit the elders of our family to clean their home and shower them with love.

I have very fond memories of my early childhood during these moments with my grammy and great grandparents who were always filled with love and joy when we came around.

For many years growing up, my life was lived in a traditional, predictable way.

Later, in my late twenties, I discovered Eastern philosophy, meditation, yoga, chakras and gurus. It was a radically different path from how I was raised, which did not sit well with my traditional family.

My studies led me deeper into mysticism, cosmology and esotericism where I learned to apply crystal healing, prepare flower essences, herbal medicines, aromatherapy potions and more. Eventually, I opened a Goddess Shop and shared all of these delicious treasures while I taught empowerment workshops, taught yoga and led meditation as I administered energy healings.

I was deep in my process of spiritual discovery and aggressively looking for self-awareness. From meditational psychotherapy, gestalt therapy to traditional meditation, guru-to-guru, I made my way looking for me.

The first guru, Swami Rama, was a blessing. He brought great healing into my life after the crisis of my divorce, giving me the soothing words and understanding that I needed to go deeper into my practices of soul searching. He came in around the time of my Saturn Return, an important turning point in my life.

The second guru, The Divine Mother of Sri Aurobindo came into my life next. With this guru, The Mother, I learned advanced meditation techniques, worked on absolving karma, clearing it from my body. She also assisted me in preparing the flower essences that I have made for many years. Over time, my frequency through meditation and devotion transformed with her presence in my life.

And there has been Osho who, for many years through his teachings unleashed me from the old patterns that held their grips on my individuality and uniqueness.

But the most powerful guru of them all for me, I realize, is my mother.

My mother gave me the most magical mantra of them all.

The mantra rings in my head to this day with a delicate delivery of her voice echoing in the background: “This too shall pass”.

Whenever she would watch me go into a dramatic, emotional spin, as a child, she would repeat this mantra to me. She wouldn’t give me a hug, nor would she scoop me up into her lap. On the contrary, she would roll her eyes and remind me that the wave of intensity, the passion that was soaring inside of me would soon subside.

It felt cold and unfeeling when she would say these words to me as her eyes slightly rolled and she whispered a sigh. It felt as though she really didn’t care about what was happening to me.

But no, that was not the case.

The deeper I have gone into my studies and practice I am finding that this mantra is actually my saving grace as a passionate, emotional being.

With her smooth “coolness” she could see that my dramatic outbursts, dives into melancholy and periods of disappointment would soon pass and I would be onto something else. She could see, things do pass, circumstances change and I get it over it.

Now, as an adult, I repeat this mantra over and over as I encounter the roar of my emotions, the dip of my sadness and the thrill of a great moment or the shock of change.

I also share this mantra with others, “This Too Shall Pass” as a way to let go, center and remember that nothing is fatal, nothing is forever, and nothing stays the same. Things change, people move on, opportunities come and go and whatever was today will be different tomorrow.Mother with me in lap

Thank you Mama, for the greatest gift of all, the awareness that “this too shall pass”.

You are, indeed, my favorite guru.

I love you mama.

 

 

 

 

 

written by Kashi Stone 2014

 

Equanimity

Posted in EMOTIONAL on August 1, 2018 by Kashi

Meditation.KashiIn the early nineties, my mid-thirties, I acquired a job at a metropolitan alternative newspaper. My boss was an unusual, lovely character. His educational pursuit had led him into eastern mystical studies, gurus, yoga, meditation and a vast library on the topic. Somehow he maintained one foot in the mystical world and one foot in the material world. It was impressive.

I remember, when I would be in a heated moment of frustration he would whisper to me , “e…qua….ni….mi….ty”. He would say it so gentle, so soft, so wise, and deeply into my eyes. In that moment, I would look at him and think to myself, “Ya, rite, what is that?”

equanimity |ˌēkwəˈnimitē; ˌekwə-|
noun
mental calmness, composure, and evenness of temper, esp. in a difficult situation : she accepted both the good and the bad with equanimity.

I have always been an emotionally passionate person. I have worn my emotions on “my sleeve”, as they say. Throughout the years, especially with family, I have bore my sadness, disappointment, anger or excitement without the maturity to carry me in grace.

Equanimity had been far away from my awareness throughout my youth.

One day while working at the newspaper, I heard a woman’s voice. I was so taken by the tone that I had to find out who she was. I immediately signed up for a session with her.  Her aura was lovely, soft and smooth and very healing for me as I was taken by the tone of her voice.

We began with a series of sessions that took me through a number of progressive visualizations that began to wake me up, stir my essence and redirect my path.

I soon realized that I wanted to tread a different path in life and seeker a deeper meaning to who I am and why I am here. I loved working at the newspaper. I was very successful in the role that I operated in. But, I became restless, feeling as tho it was time to unplug from the world and journey into a personal experience of self discovery.

The work with this woman led me into making a decision to leave the newspaper  job and to open up my own women’s spirituality shop. During that time, I intensified my practice of yoga, meditation and amplified my purification. After a period of a few years, I began to have Kundalini risings. A whole new chemistry was beginning to take shape in my being.

Through my purification process, my blood cleansed, my nature changed, my aura emptied and my Emotional body became very still, quiet and equanimous.

I began to fall into a different kind of existence that moved with nature and relied entirely on serendipity.  This new rhythm changed my chemistry so radically that I began to taste the fruits of what it is like to have a quiet, still, clear emotional system that no longer ruled my day nor my mind.

Instead, a quality of joy unlike I have ever known entered my being as life began to look very different. Suddenly, I began to see beauty in all directions. This was not a delusional perspective, this was true ecstasy moving through my body and holding me in a state of equanimity radiating out a force of love and showering me with Kundalini Risings each day, deep in the experience of equanimity.

Finally, I had begun to see what equanimity truly looksed like and feel it in my being. No longer was it an illusion for now, it had become my daily meditation practice. The best way to describe it is “calm” and super relaxed. There was no hurry, no haste, no imposition of another. I was alone and on my own, in a state of surrender and it was blissful.

I changed my lifestyle radically and spent most of my time living outside, free from the constraints of the modern world. My life became much slower as I could feel the sensation of initiation and learned to avoid doing it. I also, started to feel what was correct instead of trying to figure things out mentally.

Eventually, through my heightened psychic abilities that had developed, I could also see that this state is inherent in all beings. Everyone was just asleep to this hidden gift.

Understanding that each person is unique, takes away blame, fear, confusion, or an overly stimulated mind.

Using Strategy and Authority can help take one to that place of equanimity. It’s not the answer but it’s a wonderful step in the right direction.

 

 

Kashi Stone 2014